Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive. – Howard Thurman
This is one of my absolute favorite quotes of all time. I have loved it for as long as I can remember. (Or more accurately, since about my freshmen year of college.) I am currently participating in the Free Range Humans course designed by Marianne Cantwell and it is amazing! I’m only on what is referred to as the “defrosting” week but I already love it. On Friday I will begin Week 1 and delve into figuring out what I want to do with my life instead of being stuck behind a desk until the end of all time. Don’t get me wrong, that is totally fine for some, just not for me. I graduated with a degree in Hotel, Restaurant and Tourism Management from the University of Wisconsin – Stout. After working as a food & beverage manager, server, bartender, and as a property manager for both residential and commercial properties, I really need to get my shit together.
Pardon my French but I am so exhausted. I am exhausted with this “stuck” feeling that has been dragging me down and I am physically and mentally exhausted as well. (I have taken up a part-time serving job to pay off student loans.) It is hard my friends! Your 20’s is harder than everybody makes it look. And more than anything I am needing to refocus and center in this crazy world. Due to some recent events in my life I am dedicating this year to me. That means no more negativity, no more unnecessary drama and no more nonsense from others. It is just me.
Where will it lead me? I have no idea. Actually, I have lots of ideas. For things I want to do, for the woman I want to become. But, I need to dig deep down and find what’s inside this heart of mine. I am positive that my internal compass already has a path for me if I can just make myself listen. I’m scared and nervous because I am laying my heart out here on the operating table with no clue of what the outcome will be. I know there is no in between though. I will either make it through or flat-line and since I’m not much of a quitter I don’t see the second one as an option.