Perhaps I should start by saying thank you. Even though it was really just ideal timing or circumstances and a chance meeting of two people in this large, crazy universe. But, thank you anyways. For your patience and understanding while I mended my heart. Maybe we knew each other in that time or maybe we did not. Either way, I am grateful for the divine intervention that brought us together.
There are some things you must know, going into this. I will love you with my whole entire being and give nearly everything of myself to ensure your happiness, our happiness. However, after my most painful heartbreak, I have learned that I will not lose myself within this relationship because now I know, without a doubt, that I am strong enough to stand on my own. I am independent, stubborn, and sassier than I am willing to admit most times, but also selfless, kind-hearted and compassionate. But if you’re all in, I’m all in too. And together, we can shape this into the beautiful story I know it can be.
Our relationship will take work and it will get messy, but perfection is boring. I am brutally honest and will tell you what’s on my mind. When we get into an argument, I won’t back down until I have shared everything that is in my heart. But, at the end of the day, love is more important than being right, so at times we may have to agree to disagree.
When I’m feeling unsure of myself, I might just need a little direction and guidance. A reminder that I’m not (completely) crazy for chasing my dreams and that what I have to offer this world is beautiful and unique. I need somebody to be brave for me. To recognize those times where, even though it may seem I have it together on the outside, I am falling apart on the inside. I promise to lift you up in your moments of doubt, as well as remind you of all the reasons I fell in love with you. Because that’s what a real love story is, falling for somebody every single day, even on the days where it seems impossible. It isn’t a fairytale with princesses and knights in shining armor, but a willingness from both sides to truly see the other person. Pretty much saying, “You have your flaws, hey me too. But I’m willing to love you in spite of them. Because what you give to this world and our relationship is something I don’t ever want to be without.”
Be careful with my heart ok? I am trusting and choose to see the good in others, until given a reason not to. Maybe that makes me naive, but I certainly don’t plan on changing. I would like this to work out, but even if it didn’t, I would still be grateful for all that I have gained. But mostly, for reminding me that I am able to love. And yes, I have a love for myself, my family and friends. The love of a relationship though? That’s different. It is a vulnerability so raw and honest, most people don’t even dream of allowing themselves to get that close to someone. But you? You brought that out in me. You taught me that being broken isn’t a flaw because having a few cracks only allows more light and love to shine through.